This time a year ago someone was preparing, mentally, to move. Thats right Char, you! In a way it doesn't seem like you guys have been gone that long, then in another way, it seems like you have been gone forever. Most of the time it seems like you've been gone forever. Then sometimes, something, will remind me of you. Like Tuesday we went to town and saw a BIG guy driving a tiny car. And I thought to myself "he reminds me of Dennis and the Festiver". Then I think of the Festiva. I think of when Shane and I lived on Ebony Dr and seeing it come around the corner into the drive way. You and Dennis pulling in and Dennis with the case of Alpine. Oh those cases of Alpine.

Then there was your yard sale. Remember the yard sale? Its hard for us to forget. I baked muffins yesterday for Shane, guess who's muffin tins I used? And bread pans... I even have the cook book upstairs we got, the big one with the pineapple chicken balls. Ohhh I want pineapple chicken lol. Dennis and Shane drinking Alpines, as always, fucking drunks LMAO! Sitting outside wheeling and dealing, selling every thing you possibly could so you wouldn't have to move it. Even trying to sell Natahs for the wopping $666.

And I remember our camping trip at Cross Creek. Dennis paying Jami-Lee to blow up your little bed, Finnegan going for a swim. Dennis's FAT ASS belly! Taking pictures of my belly. I was 28 weeks preggo with Natahs then I think, I remember only because I was trying to remember how many weeks I was when I posted the pics online, which I never did. So today I am 2 weeks and 1 day behind that. I'm 26 weeks tomorrow.

You know what that means Charlene? Our babies will be around 20 weeks apart. 20 weeks! There is no 90% about it Charlene, pregnant is pregnant is pregnant. I'd assume you are around 6 weeks or so. I'm going to see if I can find out. OK I used Baby Center's due date calculator and it says due date (according to LMP, last menstrual period) is January 4th. I don't know how they figured it because to determine edd, on a 28 day cycle (which I put into Baby Center) you add 7 days (so March 30th, 31st, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5) so April 5th, and subtract 3 months.... January 5th (Dennis's bday, I didn't include the 30th last night when I counted). But whatever. Anyway, whatever the case may be, there is no 90% about it Char. Look as these tests, they are +++, you are NOT getting two false positives with a late period. You are 100% pregnant, I bet you Natahs on it LMAO!!! I'm kidding, you can't have Natahs, though I am sure you want him since he is beautiful, but you ARE pregnant.


Now there are things we have to discuss. Have you ever taken a real look at my blog? Did you see the "My Opinions" section, the circumcision part!! READ IT! No circumcision! Now thats if you have a boy, well if you have a girl you can't circumcise her either lmao. I just can't picture you and Dennis with a little girl. A little girl with a beard and mustach. I know you said he shaves all the time now, can't even have the 5 o'clock shadow, but thats not the Dennis I know. It would be cute for Dennis to have a little girl though too. Sorry about your luck Char, but this is about Dennis LMAO! When I think of you and Dennis having a little baby I think of a little miniature Dennis. Dennis Jr. is a good name, appropriate likely, but not DJ, God talk him out of DJ!

Let see... we found out the sex of the baby on 4/25 - its another Penis. Penis #3 I have dubbed him. His name will likely be Wyatt, as it is Shane's decision. His heart looks fine and he not only caught up in growth but was measuring the wopping one day ahead. He was "supposidly" 1lbs 9oz, and it was done at 24 weeks 3 days. Here are some beautiful pictures of him. First one you can see his sweet little face, and the next two he is sucking his thumb.

   

Isn't he just too cute? I also have a couple new pics of Jord and Natahs I will put up some other time. They are sweet.

So Shane started work yesterday, he's tree planting. He gets up at 4AM, leaves at 5AM and is home for 4PM. So that means he'll be home in about and hour and I have to start cleaning a BIT soon lol.

I started a new blog recently just for some of my more private thoughts. No one knows the link, it will stay that way (or atleast I wont be giving it out to anyone lol). Anyway, point is, while updating it I feel guilty for not updating this one. To be honest I was just bored with it. I only started the new one to have somewhere Shane wouldn't find to write. And its also filled with stupid thoughts and emotions that I write during peak depression time that no one needs to know about. Thats why no one will get the link.

So anyway, I'm going to be ugdating this one. I already have a new layout. I still need to figure out how to change the tag board colors and stuff.

Did I post that I had my doctors appt? Well I did, we found the heart beat, it was 158.

Monday Natahs was feeling warm, Tuesday hot. He was fever all day, ranging between 102.4 with tylenol - 104+ w/o tylenol. Wednesday it broke and he felt fine all day and all day Thursday. Well around his 1:30PM changing I noticed he had a huge rash all over his belly. I was freaked since he had just ran a high fever and no other effects. I called telecare and they said it sounded like 5ths disease. They said he would be fine but I would have to be seen immediately since I am pregnant and it can be very harmful to the fetus. We went to the afterhours clinic that night and they sent me to have blood drawn on Friday afternoon (after examining Natahs). So on Friday I went to get blood drawn for the second time that week (Monday was my normal blood drawing thing). I look like a heroin junkie or something, both arms with needle holes. The right arm (one they took the blood from on Friday) has a huge red circle around it where the bandaid was, it looks sick.

Hopefully I will find out soon what the results are. I hope nothing is wrong with the baby. I'm around 15.5 weeks

I was reading Robin's blog today and found this statement:

"A car jacker is NOT going to leave a note on the back of my car  so that I'll get out and he can steal my car! For fuck's sake this is CANADA! You know how many car jacking there are? So FEW that when there IS one its on the goddamned national news! And YES it is useful advice, but if theres a note stuck to your car, its probably because someone dinged your car and is honest enough to leave their insurance information. "

I was sitting at my chair just nodding my head, because it is so true. I finally got to watch Bowling for Columbine the other day. When they were interviewing Canadians there was this one girl that said her home had been broken into (and we do have lots of petty crime) and things taken, but she still doesn't lock her doors. I thought she sounded stupid. Then we realised she meant during the day. Then I realised he meant that Americans, by majority, lock their doors during the day. I can not freaking IMAGINE that. Locking my doors while I'm in watching TV, or playing with Natahs and Jord, or just on the PC. I can't believe there are places that NEED to have their doors locked during the day. We don't even lock ours at night. We rarely lock them when we go anywhere. Its weird to think that a place so close, can be so much more different

So we went in yesterday. They counldn't feel the baby, but as soon as he placed the doppler on my belly he found the heartbeat right away. It was 158.

Its fucked up again. It works fine, perfect, when its on. But for some reason (its the second time its happened) my monitor goes on standby (or what is normally standby) and wont come back on. It did it on Wednesday night and just came back on tonight. I have NO IDEA what is wrong with it.

So I checked out your blog and saw your name list thing, thanks, I want to look up names later today. Here is the ones I like/don't.


BOYS
Andrew (nn Drew) - I love DREW
Austin - Shane likes it, I don't much
Benjamin - Its cute, but NMS
Blue - I LOVE it "Thats my boy blue"
Brook(lyn) - Natalie Prince's dd
Branden - I like it
Christian - Mom and Shane both like it, but my friend Christian always had a crush on me, he's nms lol
Chance - remember the psycho with the ds Natahs I told you about? She called him Chance
Cade - we're thinking about it
Dylan - know a streetrat named Dylan
Ethan - I LOVE IT, my pick
Iain - 90210
Jesse - Can't use it, Shane has Jessie, and I dislike it with a passion
Jack(son) - I like Jaxon a lot
Jorden - Too close to Jordan
Kyle - Dustin's roomate (ie: Dustin's friend = loser)
Michael - Jord's middle name
Miles - too cute
Nicholas - my cousins name
Nathan - same type of name as Jesse (and Steven and Daniel IMO, grrr)
Owen - I like a lot
Pierce - CORD
Rylan - sounds kind of feminine
Ryan - like a lot
Sean - same type as Jesse, Nathan, Steven, Daniel, ect
Tyson - Shane likes this so much
Tye - definately considering
Xander - dunno
Zane - had a badass neighbour with the name Zane

GIRLS
Aleana - how do you say it?
Alaina - Jord was going to be Alana
Ashlee - nope
Aleah - kind of cute
Alexandra (HATE the nn Allie though!) - don't like Alex names
Brook(lyn) - Natalie P's dd
Chelsea - what a beautiful name (Chelsie reads my blog)
Camille - Dunno
Darrah - a girls last name in school that was a douchebag
Elisabeth - I love it
Elisha - Don't like it
Emma - who cares about popularity if you love it
Hayley - can't use it anyway, we have Haley (i've loved it since I was young)
Josephine - JoJo
Jordyn/Jordan - GRRRRRRR
Jenasha - hmm
Kate - Its the one I am most considering now, so simple but bold
Leah - LEAH BIRDSHIT, eerr BURGEES
Lindsay - nah
Lauren - Love it
Lucy - Lu
Lilly - Autistic dd of Jackson on AMC
Michaela - very trendy
Mary-Kate - dieting/annerexic
Meredith - I like a lot
Madeline - I like it and teh nick name lol
Meadow - now how could I name a girl the name you will use??
Najala - too close to Nula, the psycho
Olivia - love it
Rose - like it alright
Samantha dislike
Shylah - its sooo cute
Sarah - don't like it, but don't dislike it either

So last night we found a blank CD around (they were still packed from the move) and Shane saved all of my pictures on it for me. So we reformated, and today I called to set up my new internet password (I never keep them, just save them to the connection). So then I figured I'd try it out. It works like its brand new again. Its not FAST (internet anyway), but then again I am way out in hickwville on dial-up, so can't expect much more lol. But the computer itself is much faster. I tried to log in this weekend, on the slow ass pc, and I checked my blog, hit blogdrive.com, and the damn thing froze. I tried again and it did the same thing.

I can't gaurantee my activity will be high, because in the last 1.5 months I've almost grown accoustomed to not having a pc, so it will likely be hard to get back into. Not to mention my perfect angel baby has turned into a hellian. Well of course he is not a hellian, but he is so damn active now. Unbelievably so. Maybe its just because he was SUCH a good boy before, he did no wrong EVER. He didn't cry much, he cuddled, he was so easily amused. Now he is up the stairs ATLEAST 50 times a day with no exageration. Our staircase can not be baby proofed, so we just have to chase him each and every time. Then he is big into climbing. He climbs on the chairs, up onto the table, onto the computer, on top of the TV. I can't imagine getting a half ourrd of quiet time a day any more to get on here. He watches ZERO tv. Jord watched TV (not massive amounts, but some) but Natahs has no interest whatsoever. There is no hockey on this year (BRING IT BACK), and that is the only thing he will watch at all.

FUCK, I just wrote out this big thing about Jord's lip and it erased.

Last Wednesday I had to take Jordan to the ER. He fell and "put his tooth through his lip". Turns out he didn't put it through his lip, but bit his lip in two different spots. It looked so horrible, bled so much, my poor angel baby (yeah he is my angel now LOL). So we took him in (after much pressure from my mom "HE HAS A HOLE IN HIS HEART, YOU HAVE TO TAKE HIM". They said to bring him in if it penetrated the lip, but on the way we noticed that it didn't go all the way through, just two seperate bites (it was a bloody mess, you couldn't take the clothe off to get a good look until the bleeding stopped). We took him in anyway though, because the bite on the outside looked horrible. So did the one on the inside/top of his lip, but I thought maybe the outside one would need to be stitched. He put his tooth through his lip when he was 15 months old, but when I called the hospital they said they didn't do anything for lips, except in extreme cases, because they were too hard to work with. So I figured I was making a wasted hour + trip in town, but I like getting out of the house anyway.

We dropped Natahs off at moms and went up to the hospital. In triage he told them that he fell off of Natahs's motorcycle (which he had ontop of a chair) and thats how he hurt himself. They gave him Nemo stickers and he was so proud. After a 3 hours wait (which I didn't mind), we had to wait for a room where they could put in stitches, and a pretty hurting 18ish y/o came in with no teeth left, broken nose, and spitting up blood, by all means go ahead of us LOL, he was called in. After he had suckered the nurse into getting him more stickers (he ended up with 2 nemo's, clifford, winnie the pooh, and dora stickers) it was time to see the doctor. He came in and said that the outside one would require A stitch. Jordan was SOOO brave. They didn't put the freezing in like normal, like they did with my stitches last summer. They had me hold a cotton thing under his lip and they used a syring, no needle, to insert the freezing. The cotton swab caught all the stuff that didn't get into it (95%) and I then had to hold the cotton swab on his lip for 20 minutes. The doctor came back and decided he would try to glue it instead of stitch it. But his efforts putting the lip back together were worthless, he couldn't get the skin close enough together. So he put the first stitch in and my BRAVE MAN gently squeezed my hand. Then he decided it needed another stitch. He did it on part of the cut I didn't have the cotton swab on much, Jordan felt it, my poor baby. When he put it in Jord grabbed my hand so tight and his little feet shook. The doctor said "You don't feel that eh?" and he says "MMMHMMM", poor baby. When he was all done the doctor was leaving and thanked him for being such a good brave boy, Jordan said "That really hurt me you know", he is so sweet. He didn't cry, he didn't fuss, he didn't whine, he was an ANGEL. So brave, so freaking brave.

A person in a neighbouring room was transfering to a different hospital the next day, so gave Jord a "Get Well Soon" balloon that was in his room. He also got a popscicle. He loves the doctor still, but doesn't want stitches any more.

Jord's stitches dissolved away yesterday, after only 6 days. He is so proud of himself, he showed every person he possibly could his stitches. He thinks he is so brave now, and I use it to my advantage. Yesterday he was getting ready to go to moms and wanted me to put his socks on. He can do it, but likes to have people do things for him (he gets that from me), but I tricked him. I said "I bet you aren't brave and tough enough to put your socks on"... "Oh Yah" he says... he put his socks on and did a dance. Then he got his boots, I used the same tactic. He put the first one on, but got stuck with the second one. He couldn't get it on right. So he was crying because he wasn't "brave" enough to put them on, and I told him that "sometimes the bravest thing somebody can do is ask for help", he smiled so big and handed me his boot. He is such a sweetheart.

Pregnancy wise I don't know how things are going. I'm around 13 weeks now. Like I put on my last entry, they didn't find the heartbeat at my 11 week appointment, no big deal. But they also didn't feel him/her. They felt Natahs bby 9 weeks, and claimed I was 13 weeks at that point. At 12 weeks he said I was atleast 19 weeks along with Jord, and at 11 weeks they can't feel anything? I have measured big each time. I have no cramping or pain though, no bleeding or spotting. Maybe I am just being paranoid. But I don't feel nearly as sick any more either. In the last week there have been 4 days where I didn't puke. Very odd. I know I am around the point now that maybe MS will fade away, but its never worked like this for me. I am worried, I can't help it.

And want to know a secret, I think it may be a girl. Maybe its wishful thinking, maybe, but I am planning for a boy. All I can think of is boys name, have no idea about girls names (with Jord and Natahs I had the girl names picked from very early on, boys names were the hard ones). But whenever I get worried about m/c and try to talk to the baby, I picture it as a girl, I feel its a girl. When I dream, its a girl. With Jord and Natahs I wanted boys (Jord so Dustin had his boy, and Shane so he had a boy he knew undoubtably was his, that and he likes boys better LOL), but this time I want a girl LOL. I dunno, I'm good either way. I think we're down to between three boys names: Ethan (my pick), Jayce or Wyatt. Girls, I have no idea, Something Isabella Joan

All is well here. My computer is broke. I can get on MSN (after I reboot for the 3rd time, which takes a half hour each time) but not the internet. If Internet Explorer does load, it takes me 45 minutes per page to load. So I haven't even been on MSN (couldn't be bothered to waste the 45 minutes necessary to get it working).

Chantals's pc (my sister) has been broken the last couple of days, so despite being in town I couldn't get on it. And she is on it whenever she is home, so when its not broken (except now since she is at school) I can't get on it anyway. Mom's pc is fine, but no mouses will work on it, so you have to use TAB for everything. Fuck that, I talked to Robin for 10 seconds yesterday and it was a PITA. Thanks for the email though Robin, I could only gather the patience to check one of them lol.

Well we came to town yesterday, the weather was awful so we spent the night here (poor Shane LOL).

I am not sure when my pc broke. Right after xmas I was feeling VERY anti-American. The Sri Lanka/Tsunami thing really bothered me. Watching the news and seeing a mother tell her story of how she couldn't save both of her kids and had to let one go, a Canadian mother at that, was heart wrenching. I couldn't stand the thought of Bush, our Prime Minister (let me finish this last week of my vacation before I do anything about all these innocent people dying) or anything. The war pisses me off now more then ever. I know they aren't related, but Bush makes me sick, the whole "School Yard Bully" attitude of the American government makes me sick. The senceless deaths of so many innocent people for Bush's own agenda made me sick, and it took 200,000 people dying because of a natural disaster to push me over the edge. Yeah, they are there because of "Weapons of Mass Destruction" (WOMD). You could not pay me enough to believe that that was the real reason. They aren't there to better the lives of anyone, thats their public sob story. Their there because Bush is a man eaing power hungry troll. As if you could pay me enough to believe for ONE SECOND that the USA doesn't have WOMD. I don't believe that they have them to blow up the world, but their technology is so advanced, I don't buy for a second they aren't experiementing with what they can. So that excuse blows. And there are so many countries so much worse off then Iraq, especially in Africa. So many people dying at the hands of their governemnt, more then in Iraq, conditions so much worse. If he wanted to help, thats where he'd be. Or what about 3rd world countries where a children goes blind every single minute of ever day, where they starve. Help there. Don't kill more innocent people for your own profit. I should shut up now. Anyway, I didn't want to come online, I was afraid of what I may say. But when I did eventually try, about a week later, I couldn't, it sucked.

I had my second doctors appointment. My doctor decided, judging by my first + testing, that my edd was 8/13. I am 11ish weeks now. Yesterday he tried to find a heartbeat, no luck. He also said he didn't feel anything yet (externally). He said not to worry, he doesn't even usually check for a heartbeat until around 14 weeks. I am not too worried, but Jord and Natahs's heartbeats were both there at 9 weeks. At 12 weeks gestation with Jord he VERY much felt him, Natahs he could feel too. I think that worries me a lot more then the heart beat. But I go back in 3 weeks, if no heartbeat then we will likely do an ultrasound.

If you get bored, my phone number is 506-369-7199, I probably wont be on for a while.

Oh yah, I was cleaning around my pc on Wednesday. I found my xmas cards, not yet mailed. Thanks Shane, Mr. I'll take them to the mail box. So people, don't be surprised if in 2 weeks you end up with very very late xmas cards LOL